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bellas_lullaby
01 February 2009 @ 02:43 am
This is a promise. I will copy all my entries here from my "mas mujer" planner/journal(with more details of course).

Fabi O. is going to be mad at me cos I didn't go to her brother's b-day party yesterday and I didn't go to her house in San Bernardino today. I don't know if she'll care enough to get mad at me or not, but I am sorry I didn't at least call her.

We went to SB early this morning (early for me in any case cos I went to bed at 2.30am or so. Dad was in a terrible mood and interestingly enough, mom was happy. It was weird.

We arrived there at around 10.30 am and waited a little bit for Carol and her family to get there. Jose cleaned the place a little and we all just sat and looked at him lol.

We went to see Tio Yivo(?) and we had a nice if uneventful afternoon. The interesting part came when I convinced dad to let me drive the nissan. It didn't stop once, so I'm proud of myself. He let me drive until we reached the centro. Then we went to the lake (more like a dumpster). We ate ice cream and came back home.

I designed Geral's lj journal (she allegedly directed so she designed as well... she thinks).  I corrected a few things from my own layout which I'm really proud about. I have to figure out why the edit, comment and other links are not there :S

Overall, it was a nice day :)

This is Geral's header image:




 
 
Current Location: 2nd House, Lambaré
Current Mood: peaceful
Current Music: Paramore - We are broken (Live)
 
 
bellas_lullaby
10 September 2008 @ 05:25 pm

Really, I am. There's no denying it. When they separate us in front of the book of Life to finally get our final judgement, Saint Peter, Jesus or whoever is handing out the rewward/punishment is going to announce that first he's going to present the award to the most idiotic person on Earth... and he's going to call my name. Sadly enough, that prize will be my only claim to fame or the only reason I may get the chance to appear in history books (if there are such things after the kingdom of God is among us)... anyway....

I've been doing so well, you know, talking to people, not blushing everytime someone adresses me, so I heartily believed I was over the whole awkward person I can be when someone I find interesting thinks it is the right time to talk to the weird girl that gives out  the "don´t get close to me cos I can't handle social situations" vibe. By the way, I'm currently playing hookie cos I'm supposed to have an administration exam in less than an hour but here I am using the net. So, this is what happenned.

The currently cutest (and most taken) guy I've seen in Paraguay is also someone who could be a contestant for the most  antisocial person on the planet award (I'm all about awards today). He's my classmate and of Fabiola's classmate/friend boyfriend. We've seen each other a few times outside of school. Thing is, we don't speak to each other now. We see each other everyday and ocassionally we make eye contact (cos I can't help it but look at him every once in a while). On Saturday I went to Fabi's house to watch the soccer game between Paraguay and Argentina (1-1) and 'lo and behold... O is there... and we don't say hi to each other.... Except he does say bye when he leaves looking directly at me.. so really. I should have made the effort to talk to him on monday.. but I'm a certified chicken. Then today, he got in late and then he was one the firsts to leave for the break. I go to the copy ehm place to get the thing we are supposed to read for economics and I look back toward the ehm chairs and there he is in all his broad shoulders glory. I look back toward the weird guy that´s making the copies and I feel someone behind me. I look back... and I almost fainted... yep... it was him. I couldn't look at him in the eyes... in fact, as soon as I realized that it was HIM. I turned out and turned into a deaf and mute person. He was probably offended to he talked to our other classmate who was diagonally from him and paid her to get the copy of the papers... and he left. And I'm an idiot and crying inside.Not because I think I have a chance or anything, but because it would be nice to know someone like him or (with God's blessing) to be friends with him. Cos in spite of the fact that he's antisocial... he's just one of those guys you want to have his cell number programmed in your cell phone... even if you are never going to be ballsy enough to actually call him.

I can definitely say that I hate his gf. And I don't think she likes me that much either. I'm also over the other guy I thought I liked cos he's smart and all that but I'm now officially obsessed with O. I would sell the souls of all the members of my family to get a chance with someone like him. But I should just be glad I can admire him from a safe distance where I can't thoroughly embarrass myself.

I think I'm not going to go to class. I'll beg for mercy later. I want to go to Maita to get the pastels.

 
 
Current Mood: disappointed
Current Music: OneRepublic - Stop and Stare
 
 
bellas_lullaby
03 September 2008 @ 05:55 pm
I've just began using the internet at the university and it works really well so I'll be updating regularly once again. It's weird how I write to myself, thinking that I'd like to remember whatever I'm thinking at this very moment years from now.

I'm in between classes right now, waiting for the Introduction to Administration course to begin. I hate it. I loathe it. If I had to sit through that class more than two hours a week I'd kill myself... really. The teacher is one of those you'd like to throttle if you could get away with it. I'm broke right now... so I can't get away with it... oh the pain.

So, school again. As I've come to expect, it's as hard as usual to make friends. I really think that I wasn't there the day the handbook of socialization was given to everyone else. I am completely lost when it comes to interacting with most ppl. *sigh* At least I have an interesting story to tell that allows me to appear in the radar for at least 5 mins until the story of my life abroad becomes something not so exciting once again.

Also, I've excluded myself from the rest of the group because of the location of my seat. I though that location was only important when you were opening a new restaurant or club, but to my surprise I've discovered that it also has a lot to do with how much social participation you have. Next to the wall on the right? Social suicide. And I've been so careful about not wearing my weird t-shirts and mentioning things like.. oh I don't know... mentioning the fact that I like to read. But it seems ppl are really good readers of others ppl's characters cos I've been discovered.

I keep hoping that I'll be able to find someone who's like me in this "big" place, but experience has taught me not to get too excited. Oh and I should really send an email to Anwar, he probably hates me right not. In this particular case I have to admit that it is my fault and that I deserve being called whatever word he uses when he thinks about me (if). It's really not my fault that I can't acquire the taste for going out. I've tried but I've failed miserably. It's a cruel and viscious circle the one I'm stuck in. I don't know many ppl so I don't like to go out. I don't go out so I don't get to know many ppl. I know, I know I should just go out but it is simply not that exciting to do so when you don't have a party friend... and Fabi has abandoned me. Yes, so I act like a kid when I say that but the bond should really be stronger considering all the years we spent together. Oh well.

I'll keep writing another day... maybe tomorrow. I have lots I want to remember... years from now. Lots of books I've read, serious fights I've had (including the one during which I got kicked out of the house), ppl I've met (not many but interesting).

Anyways, a bientot

Moi




 
 
Current Location: UCA, Paraguay
Current Mood: confused
Current Music: Soulmate - Natasha Bedingfield
 
 
bellas_lullaby
30 June 2008 @ 12:52 pm
It's been 14 weeks since the last time I wrote something. It has a lot to do with the fact that I'm still getting used to living in Paraguay once again.
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Current Location: Asunción, Paraguay
Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: What've you done - Within Temptation
 
 
bellas_lullaby
23 March 2008 @ 03:14 am
I can't belive it's been 10 days since the last time I wrote something. I've been busy... reading.
 
 
bellas_lullaby
15 March 2008 @ 09:52 pm
 
 
bellas_lullaby
12 March 2008 @ 06:56 pm

Alright, finally I've got some time in my hands. I, like any other person when he/she has nothing to do, was organizing my room. Not especially news worthy, however, I'm writing this as a promise to myself (the only one who has to suffer afterwards... or my aunt when she's in one of her cleaning-monica phases) to never, no matter how tired I am, throw my clothes to the back of my closet and expect them to magically organize themselves. It's a pain to fold ALL OF THEM later.
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You Suck
by Christopher Moore



 I think I've found a new fav author. I love romance. I love comedy. I love paranormal. Hence, I love "You suck." Tommy and Jody are a very interesting couple. He's funny even when he's not thinking of getting some monkey love. She adores him despite his crazy ideas. How they learn to cope with their new vampiric powers is hilarious. Not to mention how they manage to get a new onion/minion lmao. The addition of Allison (her day slave name) aka Abby Normal just made the whole storytelling more compelling.

This book is of course not one to take seriously, but is perfect for those days when you just want/need something to make you laugh. Sure, the ending is a disappointment (it seemed to be preparing itself for a great showdown) but the kick you get from reading the crazy thoughts and actions of the characters more than makes up for it. 

Story: 7
Characters: 7
Writing: 8
Ending: 6

Excerpt: Abby (self proclaimed tragic femme fatale) talking with Steve aka Foo Dog. Abby's POV

“Stop,” I said. “Please do not further endorken youself to me. You have great hair

and a car that is most fly, and you have just saved me with your mad ninja driving

skills, so do not sully your heroic hottie image in my mind by further reciting your

nerdy scholastic agenda. Dont tell me what youre studying, 

Steve, tell me what
s in your soul. What haunts you?”

And he was like, “Dude, you need to cut back on the caffeine.”
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Life update 

GreenGecko updated Revolutions. I LOVE that story. She should write a book.

My knee is much much better, yay!

E stopped by. She's thinking about getting back together with Mr. F, who's not only 13 years older than her but also has 6 kids with his ex *sigh* He's a good guy alright, but there's no way in hell that her family is going to be happy about it and that's not even the worst issue. My conclusion after spending hours talking to her about it? She's crazy... period.

 
 
Current Location: CA, you-know-who's house
Current Mood: blah
Current Music: angels - within temptation
 
 
bellas_lullaby

Match me if you can by Susan Elizabeth Phillips



 Definitely, one of my fav novels of all time. This is probably without exaggerating the 15th time I've read it. I love the interaction between Heath and Annabelle. The dialogue is witty and entertaining, never too sappy or sugary to make a shot of insulin necessary. I'm not a football fan but it is easy to ignore that aspect of the plot. Annabella is (of course) a not so amazing woman who falls in love with someone who is almost unbearably gorgeous. He is extremely charming and has amazing eyes, the python. Despite my love for this novel I would just once like to find one with a strong female character, not as flawed as all the others. Books are a way to momentarily live in someone else's shoes. I just wish those shoes were more amazing (Naughty Monkey style ;D). I'm already a regular woman, why would I want to be that in Gio's-land as well?

The Victoria's secret catalogue is AMAZING. I just wish I hadn't spent $500 the last time I shopped there so I would still feel ok about buying something... oh well.

So, today I finally booked my ticket to go back to Paraguay. Can't say I'm terribly thrilled about it. As a matter of fact, for a moment it made me wish I really didn't need to go back but until I hear back from the french universities I have no choice *sigh* The good thing about it is that my paraguayan friends are very excited about going back and I can't deny that I miss going to the clubs even if I've never been a party girl.

In the end, Epeti is not going to come here on Friday... a shame.

I had a weird dream last night (this morning actually, I went to bed at 4:45 am just before you-know-who got up). I have forgotten half of it but I clearly remember becoming a surgeon. Guess that career path is still open for me. Wonder what dad would say about that. I think Fabi and Vio were also in it but I'm not sure. At least at not waking up with anxiety attacks about moving to new places where I don't know anybody. Guess that's going to happen tonigh... since I've though about it... darn it.

I created the Twilight community today in Orkut. I hope I get more ppl from the latin/hispanic community excited about it. It will be kinda sad after I leave here that I won't find any other hardcore fans. 

I wish I could go back in time and that I had started this journal earlier. There are so many wonderful memories that are slipping through the cracks of oblivion. Somehow, the more the time passes, the hardest it is to remember the good times. They become overshadowed by the thing you actually wish you could forget. I wonder why that is? Does everybody's mind work the same way? Or am I just a masochist?

Well, my 2nd photoshop creation is obviously Twilight related. Oh my darling Robert.

 
 
Current Location: CA, house of you-know-who
Current Mood: confused
Current Music: Blower's Daughters - Damien Rice
 
 
bellas_lullaby
10 March 2008 @ 11:58 pm

Well, by the time I finish writing this it's already going to be the 11th.

Nothing much happened today... as per usual lately. Just spent the day wishing my leg would finally/miraculously get better so I won't have to limp anymore and organizing my files (the amount of junk a person can accumulate with 4 external hard drives is amazing).

I also installed Adobe Photoshop CS3 Master (this is just a reference to my future self to calculate the amount of time I spent not learning to learn to use it completely).

This is one of those days when I wish I hadn't quit my piano lessons... *sigh*  which inevitably leads to a whole lot of regret for other things I didn't do... Interesting that the "voice" in my head sounds exactly like my mother's lol.
 
I have also been wondering if I should try and call S again. Maybe he's over pmsing and will explain wth he got mad at me in the first place (I'm guessing that's the reason he has basically stopped talking to me). Or maybe I just have some hidden power a.k.a personality trait that randomly gets my closests friends mad at me without me being aware. Maybe the fact that most of them are  considerably older than me is another thing I need to take into consideration... oh well.

I also realized (my, my this has been a day full of self-discoveries) that I would like to live in Japan for some time in the future. 
Note to self: Learn to speak japanese.

Another day passed... I forgot to call Tia Katy to congratulate her for her b-day. She's probably pretty pissed at me right now... Understandable. I hate time differences... 5 hours (I think... they changed the time in Paraguay) so by the time I remember I need to call somebody it's already too late. *end of rant*


One more old pic uploaded.
 

 
 
Current Location: CA
Current Mood: aggravated
Current Music: Memories-Within Temptation, Friends-Stephenie
 
 
bellas_lullaby
09 March 2008 @ 05:59 pm

 Yay, I'm being constant. Waiting for ep. 22 of MSG00 to finish  downloading. My knee still hurts... I have an appointment with the doctor on Tuesday *sigh*

Today I decided to post some old drawings... maybe then I'll get inspired and finish the ones I began a few months ago lol. The quality of the pics are not that good because they are photographs of them hanging on my walls *sweatdrop* My scanner is not working.


This one is from Dec 2004. The add for Very Irresistible
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Keira Knightley... I love her.

 
 
Current Location: CA
Current Mood: apathetic
Current Music: Breath - Breaking Benjamin
 
 
bellas_lullaby
08 March 2008 @ 10:00 pm
ok  


Wow, first entry.  I hope that an electronic journal will have better luck than the hundreds that are scattered around my room or accumulating dust in boxes :S I honestly can't count the amount of times that I found a "pretty" journal that was supposed to inspire me to write... only to forget about it 3 days later.

Sadly, there's nothing exciting to add today. Not a lot of since since I twisted my damn left knee last saturday and I still can't stretch my leg even wearing a brace. So, I've spent most of my day re-reading Twilight, registering in all forums I could find about it (Twilighters, Bella&Edward, Stay Twilight and His Golden Eyes) I got tired of being a lurker. Also, I was helping with the creation of a new site dedicated to fans of Twilight ages 18-25. We just got tired of either hearing ridiculously immature comments or being rejected by the Twilight Moms *pout*. So, the ppl at IMDB started plotting lol.

It's 10 pm so I'm probably going to watch a movie now... maybe Vanity Fair or I may just continue browsing the net... exciting.

Currently obsessed with: TWILIGHT coffEdwardcoff

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Current Location: Seaside, CA
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: Angels - Within Temptation
 
 
 
 

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